College Retrospective

May 10, 2010

My Lament(short version)

Filed under: Just a thought... — johnyourk @ 7:22 pm

     Is there no one out there who I can relate to who doesn’t also love God? That’s the question that I’ve been having trouble answering. I also thought there was hope. But now I see none. I date, a lot. but in all these dates I have never once found a person who can appreciate me past my looks. I am not saying I’m model material or anything. But from feedback I’ve been getting. I’m hot.

     This bothers me and I attract the wrong types. i take care of my body and health because I like being healthy and being the best I can be, as a person. But people view me as any regular person who likes those cheap compliments. What I look for is a funny, smart and overall good person. I thought I could find this outside of jesus. But apparently I can’t.

     This has always been a problem; over-aggressive and clingy girls who are only attracted to me because of my looks. I personally hate it. especially since it’s never always been like this until a couple of years ago.

     I continually fail. But what happened on a date the other night really opened my eyes. And I’m giving up hope. I can’t find a girl who loves me until I know they love Jesus first.

     I’m done with dating, for a long time. Until I could get my head back together and spend a whole lot of time in my Bible. Or until someone i truly click with comes my way.

     I don’t know what will come first, but I have to trust in God on this one.

“Don’t mistake innocence for ignorance. Don’t mistake purity for inexperience. Don’t mistake humility for weakness.”                 -John Reuben

“…For the LORD does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”               – 1 Samuel 16:7


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